Five Minute Fridays – “In Between”
(Disclaimer to my readers – This is a challenge. A group to join. A prompting by another woman I like to just.sit.down. every Friday and write for only five minutes. That’s it.
Which is roughly how long it takes for me to write my normal first sentence. Ahem. So, lest some of you start dancing joyfully with glee that my post is shorter – it is advised that thy shouldn’t get thyself used to it. In Jesus’ Name.) READ MORE HERE.
Here we go…
So, for the better part of 2007-2012 I was flat on my back. Like, all.the.time.
Spinal fluid leaks are the real deal. And, they aren’t a heckofalotta fun.
My life felt as if it was put on Pause. Then Play. Then Pause. Then Stop. The, Stop again. Then Play again. (Read more here.) It was a wild ride, a time to grow in Jesus and something I would never trade for all the money in the world. For, from this divine roller coaster I gained the best gift of a person could ask for — perspective.
Before this time, I was a teacher, then stay at home Mom, then worked part time at our church. I had all but given up writing. Like, seriously, who had the time?
Then, when Someone gave me the chance to lie flat on my back all day every day for weeks and months on end, I came to a divine conclusion — one can only watch so much HGTV, y’all.
I wrote out of desperation, out of desire, out of connection with the outside world, and often out of the pure need for sanity.
Praising God From My Couch was born.
So, now what?
I have felt a true calling to write and speak and share HIS story though my story.
But, when, Lord? Now? Tomorrow? A week from Friday? Once the kids are in school?
I feel lost, happy, confused, alone, and beautiful in my present state of In-Between.
I see His future for me. I see a ministry built on a stripped-of-all-freaking-pretense active and authentic faith.
But, as for now, Oh glory how I missed this daily stuff. I missed dishes. I missed traffic. I missed, yes, even laundry.
Clearly, I was on a lot of medication. And so, for now, I feel joyful, if not flat out blessed to be in this state of In Between.
Loving on my kids. Doing carpool. Making lunches. Refereeing karate matches. Playing with dollhouses. In two years, they will all be gone in school all day every day. All. three. of. them. Then what?!
Well, then I guess I won’t be In Between anymore.
But for now…I rest here. There is peace here.
Genesis 18:19 breathed fresh life into me in between this morning. “For I have chosen him, so that he will direct his children and his household after him to keep the way of the LORD by doing what is right and just, so that the LORD will bring about for Abraham what he has promised him.” Gen.18:19
Thank you Jesus for In Between. Thank you for the past, and my couch, and for meeting me there. Thank you for today and one kid in time-out and the other two doing ‘charachter building chores’. And precious Jesus, thank you for In Between today and tomorrow…wherever, whatever, whenever You have it for me.